I have been waiting to write this post for a very long time and today feels right. I think I am finally ready to get everything out. You see I was traumatised by the birth of my first child, JJ back in 2003. I knew back then something was wrong but I did not know what and being the logical kind of person I am, I just pushed my feelings aside and told myself to stop being silly.
However, now spurred on by many inspirational friends I feel I should and can share my story. Someone else may be reading this and it may resonate with them and they may be reassured to know they are not alone and that it is OK to be really sad after the birth of your awaited and loved child. Giving birth can be a really big deal and it can effect you in so many ways.
So, roll back to 2003 and I find out I am pregnant in late January when my period does not arrive. Dh and I are ecstatic, if a little surprised. I came off the pill in October after 10 years and we expected it to take us a long time to fall pregnant - not so. We just moved into a bombsite in September 2002 and now we are expecting our first baby - arrgghh, better get Dad up here quick to make the house good. Wonderful Dad obliges.